This morning started off rough. Maybe it was the 12+ hour shift I had solo (with the exception of dinner time) with Copeland and Ryker yesterday. Or the lack of sleep is just now catching up to me. Or the constant changing of poopy diapers for Ryker. Or the guilt of not wanting to change him and then him getting a diaper rash. Or Copeland needing some Mommy time. Or cringing at myself when I hear myself say AGAIN, “No Copey. Don't do that.” Or feeling like I have no time to even think about getting myself presentable except nap time- which usually I would rather take a nap. Or just getting used to having two, but I am overwhelmed. I keep thinking- how in the world do families that have more than two kids even manage to get anything done? I feel completely in chaos already with just two- but for some reason we do want more- not for a good long while though.
Anyway, today I am overwhelmed.