I made it! Made it through the two weeks of starvation…ha, not really. But it was a bit of torture. I think I have a lot of patience. And I have been pretty laid back with my food restrictions so far in life until these last two weeks. I knew it was for the better, but it stretched me mentally. I think the going into hypoglycemic shock did me in. Not to mention the added stress of life's hard balls thrown in the mix. However, I made it. And an added bonus, I figured out a new favorite meal…chicken curry! Oh. My. On top of that, I have a new favorite salad (my old fav was made with thousand island)…olive oil with salt and pepper and lots of veggie goodness. This is a favorite lunch time meal now. I used to be a sandwich girl. And my all time new favorite veggie- SQUASH! Oh dang it is so good sauteed up in the skillet with a little olive oil. So all in all, I pray my tummy has healed in the process. I am weirdly excited to get my final blood draw to see what my chemistry looks like after six months of supplements, dietary fixes, and a whole shift in thinking has done for my body. And now…I am thankful that I am finished with my diet, and I am going to drink some black tea with agave and have some peanut butter with a banana (all of which was FORBIDDEN). Then I am going to eat a seriously yummy Thanksgiving meal in a few days and relish every flavor.
I am on Day #5 with my grand finale detox to help repair my gut. I have felt this way before about a year ago. Miserable, can't sleep, itching all over. Yes, I have the stupid rash that keeps returning. The blisters in between my toes and heels. The rash makes me feel a little crazy. But I just have to keep thinking it is the toxins releasing themselves, trying to get out of my body. But wow, this just sucks. The first few days I felt fine almost great! And energetic. Today I feel woozy, jittery, adrenal rushed, out of body…strange. All I know is this better work.
But I get nauseas just thinking about coffee these days. No desire to drink it or smell it or make it. It's like a pregnant moment. This is all apart of my body detoxing and healing.
A week before my detoxing began I said to some friends, “Wow, I could never give up my coffee.” Seriously, I was so amazingly addicted to it and thought how in the world would I survive without it. My sleep deprived self couldn't fathom a morning without my comfort-in-a-cup. Or my afternoon pick me up drive thru to Starbucks. A week later I started my detox regimen and I slowly started getting sick to my stomach when I poured a cup of joe in the morning. Then slowly I petered off of my addiction and now I don't even miss it. I am so glad I am off of it. I dearly and devotedly gave my heart to Starbucks many years ago and I have claimed it back. So freeing. I am being dramatic, but I am way proud of myself.
Just a quick update on my detox: Things are going okay. I am still dealing with the side affects of detoxing like nausea but I feel overall great. I am not exhausted but actually have more energy. I love/hate that I can feel things now that I am off of Lexapro. It is a blessing to be off but it is hard to feel all the emotions that come up. But I think its a good thing to feel them. I have felt so numb from the world for so long. I probably have one more week on my set of supplements right now then I will go onto more intense detox program. I am excited. The clay baths that I take are just plain crazy. I am tempted to just scoop some out and put some in a jar to see if it does the same thing as it does in the tub with me in it. My skeptic side comes out. But I also know I do feel different afterwards. My body doesn't know how to respond to its new found freedom of mercury. I get sick and oh so thirsty. It is fascinating.
Another thing I am going to do on my own is juicing. Josh and I watched a documentary about juicing last night and were stunned at how simple it seemed. We eat so much crap. We have everything backwards in our brains. One big meat on the plate plus a starch and another carb and maybe a vegetable. Veggies and fruit should be 95% of what we eat. No wonder our bodies are in turmoil. We are obese. We are a sick country. I for one am excited to spur on others to just simply think about what you eat. It WILL affect you. We are such a society of “Well, its available so I will eat it.” “Its convenient.” How do we/I step out of that and just get the fact that fruits and veggies are in need of being the majority of our plate. Now, don't misunderstand me. I love me a gluten free bun and nice thick burger…its all about moderation. And another great question the man on “Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dying” asked that got me thinking, “Who decided we needed three meals a day?” Think about that for awhile.
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PS…And no, shockingly, I never got a caffeine headache.