The Body Speaks- Loving and Accepting Our Whole Selves

Nine years ago, I was in so much physical torment. My feet felt like fire ants were stuck inside the bottom of my foot. My skin raw and blistering from the uncontrollable itching. Sleep was not an option with this intense rash on my feet which lasted for 5-7 days for years upon years. Questions played through my mind like a scroll that never ended. Why did it have to come every 21 days? Why could no one answer what was happening to my body? Why doesn’t medicine help? I went to doctors desperate for answers and each one giving me the look like, “Hmm…I don’t know what it is.” Referral after referral I got no where. I felt at the end of my rope over and over. Each month being hopeful that something would help- prayer, essential oils, supplements, medicine, etc.

But each month I felt like I was slapped in the face. After seven years of torment, I had a major epiphany. My husband sat next to me while I cried in frustration and said this pivotal annoying profound question, “Babe, what if it doesn’t go away?” I felt like an instant pouting child. I so wanted it to heal. I wanted healing desperately. I wanted breakthrough. I hated how my body was acting. There was a legit anger at my body for creating this rash every month. But something within me started to shift as I pondered this question. I started saying, “Even if the rash comes back, my body is still a temple. God gives me strength to be okay. I can still be a mom who loves her kids well. I can still show up.”

In the ugly moments of insomnia and racing mind, I began to see Jesus in the midst. I do not believe He caused this situation but I do believe He has taught me more than I could have without the rash.

Fast forward a few years past the conversation with my hubby, and the rash still continues though it seems it is fading. I have worked with my functional lifestyle coach for many years to discover the beauty of my relationship with my body. I am learning to love the parts of my body which speak very loudly especially when it comes to the rash. I am learning to trust what it is saying instead of fight against it.

Our body is telling us a story, and it is our job to listen. Sooner or later if we ignore it long enough, it will yell instead of whisper. Our body is a tool to listen. God uses the most amazing ways to speak with us. Through this thought process, I have spent multiple hours praying and asking what the feet represent. He answers. In your body, what is it saying? What is the Lord saying through your heavenly temple? Develop a relationship with your body which is based on love and not hatred. As I emerge from years of this place of hatred to a place of love, I continue to find freedom from pain, self-judgement, and walk more into who He has created me to be.

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This is me.

Hi friends. I wanted to introduce myself since you found your way over to my blog. My name is Kristin Chadwick and you will find I live in the most gorgeous place- in the Colorado Rockies. I am a Holy Spirit instigator, Jesus lover, Papa God’s daughter, seeker of wisdom, a hopeful candidate to be a mystic one day, a wife to my man for almost fourteen years. I’ll preface the blog to say we’ve lived some life already at the ripe age of 38. We have four children whom are our hearts’ delight- 13 year old daughter, 11 year old son, and twin boys, who are 9.  

I am a lover of many things as you will see in this blog.  One of my loves is being a podcast producer…which came to fruition through my dear friends who saw a gift in me which I did not yet see in myself- the ingrained ability to find authors, guests, music, and whatever else that brings truth and freedom to the table.  I get to write outlines for shows and even cohost on some of them! You can check it out @rebelparenting on FB/IG/ and any other podcast app.

Another big passion of mine is writing. I started a blog back in the day- 2008, when I only had one sweet baby girl. As I started having more children, I quit writing online- despite my husband encouraging me to keep going.  After about six months of writing intentionally in my own personal journals, I decided it was time to create a blog to share with you.

One thing you should know, I am always on the hunt to step into more of who Jesus is, who God is, and who the Holy Spirit is. So I will ferociously go after this topic and I hope to bring you with me as I discover and invite you into the questions and *magical moments.

I am also in the middle of creating my first book about encountering God through meditation and imagination in our everyday lives. I love sharing what God has shown me over the past decade in my search for “there has to be something more than this.”

I just began teaching my very own class series on “Identity in Jesus, Mission Statements, and Goals.”  This has been foundational as I have stepped deeper into intimacy with Jesus and with my family and my friends. I am looking forward to where the Lord takes this whole class! A friend of mine called me a spiritual coach the other day and I may just let that stick.

What will you find on this blog? I believe in being real and empowering others to live the fullest life they can. You will hear a lot about Jesus, Holy Spirit, and the Father. You will read a lot about what my kids teach me everyday. You will hear things about motherhood, marriage, life, friendships, boundaries, doing your own work, and lots more. If you know someone who would love to share in the love, please share! My hope is you find freedom in my words through the Spirit who connects each of us.